Look Here

Take a look at my body, look at my hands, there's so much here that I don't understand.

Your face saving promises, whispered like prayers.. I don't need them.

Cuz I've been treated so wrong, I've been treated so long as if I'm becoming untouchable...

Well, contempt loves the silence it thrives in the dark, the fine winding tendrils that strangle the heart.

They say that promises sweeten the blow but I don't need them... no I don't need them.

I've been treated so wrong, I've been treated so long as if I'm becoming untouchable.

I'm a slow dying flower, in the frost killing hour sweet turning sour, & untouchable....

Oooh I need the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the weakness, ooh I need this.

Need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight, angel, sweet love of my life! ooh I need this..!

I'm a slow dying flower, frost killing hour, the sweet turning sour, & untouchable...

Do you remember the way that you touched me before, all the trembling sweetness I loved and adored...

Your face saving promises whispered like prayers. I don't need them....

I need the darkness, the sweetness, the sadness, the weakness, ooh I need this.....

I need a lullaby, a kiss goodnight, angel, sweet love of my life... ooh I need this..

Well, is it dark enough, can you see me? do you want me? can you reach me? or I'm leaving...

You better shut your mouth and hold your breath you kiss me now, you catch your death...

Ohhh I mean this, Ohhh I mean this...

My skin - Nathalie Merchant

Grape Harvest

This last weekend I’ve made a visit to my mother. We were having lunch when I’ve asked her:

me: Next weekend to you need extra-help for the grape harvest?

mom: Are you thinking on what I am thinking?!

me: Yes, why not?! You both already know each other…

mom: But… he doesn’t mind coming from F., do he?!

me: I didn’t say that was the guy from F.

mom: NO!!

me: Yes.

mom: NO, I can not believe on it.

me: Well, it’s true, you can believe it.

mom: I told you that someday you will join together again.

me: Ok, don’t tell me anything more. I already know your opinion.

mom: And what’s happened to the other guy?!

me: Mom, in my life the buses were always late, and I’ve always waited for them. This time I’ve decided to take another bus from a different line. I hate to be late.

Well, that’s true. Again 2 Aries have joined together for the third time. Yes… third time, unbelievable, hein?! So here are the dates which I remember quite well:

May 15th, 1997

January 19th, 2002

September 4th, 2007

Each 5 years we join together, so I’m already prepared to split away in order to join together again in 2012. :-) In this moment you are wondering why we spilt away. As I said to him, some weeks ago “90% of the reasons are from gastronomical incompatibilities”. I’m hearing your laughs :-) I think that if everybody had only gastronomical incompatibilities the world would be happier, right?! But in our case… the Aries tend to be perfectionists and if something doesn’t match the relationship doesn’t hold on for long. Anyway 10 years have already passed, and both are more tolerant, or at least we should be more tolerant. Huumm, making a quick introspection, I think I’m less tolerant than I was 10 years ago, but at least I’ve more wisdom to deal with the misunderstandings/problems.

Make your bets… are we going to join together a 4th time?!

Time – Pink Floyd

Coincidences

There are so many coincidences in this world. I've passed almost all the night awake thinking, thinking and re-thinking. As much we think on something less we can understand ourselves. This morning I came to work and I had the following song to listen on one of my feed. I've got the music and I'm listening it repeatedly since about 1 hour ago.

The lyric is below and describes exactly my mood for the next days, until I find the f*cking answer.

In The Shadows - The Rasmus

No sleep,
No sleep, until I'm done with finding the answer
Won't stop,
Won't stop, before I find the cure for this cancer
Sometimes, I feel like going down I'm so disconnected
Somehow, I know that I am haunted to be wanted
I've been watching, I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
I've been searching, I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
In the shadows
in the shadows
They say, that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe
But I, I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave
Sometimes, I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow, I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder
I've been watching, I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
I've been searching, I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
Lately, I've been walking, walking in circles
Watching, waiting for something
Feel me, touch me, heal me
Come take me higher
I've been watching, I've been waiting
In the shadows for my time
I've been searching, I've been living
For tomorrows all my life
I've been watching
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been living for tomorrows
In the shadows
In the shadows
I've been waiting

Playlist

There is always something not working in our lives. Today I woke up with good will for work but... my computer had some trojans and spywares, so I didn't made anything useful today. And I don't think I'll do until the end of the day :-s Yes... I'm bored.

Since a few months I have included some peculiar musics on my playlist. Stay with some of them. Enjoy :) Aaah, if you beg I can give you some. :)

Giannis Ploutarxos: H Aftokatastrofi Soy


Stamatis Gonidis: Exo Petaksi Mazi Sou


Despina Vandi: Sta Dosa Ola

Waiting for Tomorrow

More than missing you is getting crazy!

Will You Love Me Tomorrow - Bryan Ferry

Tonight you´re mine completely
You give your love so sweetly
Tonight the light of love is in your eyes
Will you love me tomorrow?
Is this a lasting treasure
Or just a moments pleasure
Can I believe the magic of your sighs
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Tonight with words unspoken
You say that i´m the only one
But will my heart be broken
When the night meets the mornin´ sun
I´d like to know that your love
Is love I can be sure of
So tell me now and I won´t ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
So tell me now and I won´t ask again
Will you still love me tomorrow?
Will you still love me tomorrow?

I Miss You

It's a Question of...

Because it's always a question of something, this music is dedicated to all of you.

Chorus:

Its a question of lust
Its a question of trust
Its a question of not letting
What we've built up
Crumble to dust
It is all of these things and more
That keep us together

It's a Question of Lust - Depeche Mode

Riding a Horse

When I was a baby (4 months years old), says my father that we was shopping with my mother. They passed by the toys section and I’ve fixed my eyes on a swing plushy horse. They say that I could not remove my eyes from the horse. They could not afford it, but they bought the horse for me. The horse was so cute.

I remember to be 15 years old and studding for a psychology test, trying to learn by heart some cliché sentences and riding/swinging the horse. I would like to keep that horse forever, it was the most beautiful gift/toy that someone gave to me (and I do not remember that day, obviously).

When I was 20 years old my father had a serious conversation with me “Look, you need to give the horse to another kid. You are a grown up. You can not even sit on it.” I’ve agreed with him, but I would like to keep the horse for my children in the future. Anyway, I gave the horse to the church, so they could sell it on auction, reverting the funds to charitable causes. I could not turn my parent’s house into a warehouse.

I didn’t saw the auction. I could not saw it, otherwise I could buy the horse again for myself. I never saw anything similar, at least in Portugal.

Well, I’ve rode a horse for many years. Today I move myself in other ways, such as driving my car or… (And this one is for someone very special)

Save a Horse, Ride a Cowboy

P.S. I really need to buy a cowboy hat.

Forever Young - Alphaville

That’s funny how our mood can change from a minute to another. I was reading some posts this morning and I have comment one of them. I’ve remembered the times where I had not work pressure, life pressure, problems to solve each day… It was if I lived on the wonderland.

Anyway, my comment was just:

*sigh*, I want to be young again!

And here it is the reply from my friend Nikos:

Woman To Woman

Strange, funny and intriguing is at I see some recent talks with my mother. After to surpass the barrier of the thirties; my mother is talking to me as a woman and not as a mother. Some secrets are revealed from her side and from mine. The subjects are always the same: love, passion, desire, sex, ambition, dreams. To be honest, I've never expected to ear my mother talking about some subjects and… that woman is a real woman, she has my admiration.

Today the talk was about love and passion, but she was only inquiring and listening. Her conclusion was “definitively, the times are changed. Nothing is similar to my old times”. Indeed… I agree with her.

And here it is my mood today,

Listen To Your Heart - Roxette

It's a Boy

I'm back. Did you have missed me?! I guess not. I've great news for you: I will be absent again in a short time for the same reason.

And... NO, I did not have any children :-) It is not yet the right time for that. While standing at home I had much time to socialize with the cat. The cat is a boy, and not a female cat has I said previously. He is so vain, that I called him Mr. Vain. My mother suggested 'Serafim'... well… we laugh with such hypothesis.Meanwhile I’ve gained some spirit and body strengths to continue my quest. I hope next Monday I can be at work. I will try to not spend all the cumulative energies during this weekend. :-)

Walk All Over You - AC/DC

Absence

I'll be out for a couple of weeks. I really hope to not be out for a few months. :-s I'm not sure of my return. Reason: full schedule. Next week at FEUP and the following ones at... home.

Meanwhile listen and delight yourself with the next music (well... if you like it).

Wicked games - HIM

Everything Is Different Now - Don Henley

Stolen from a private forum of… “minds” ;-)

Escapade

Tomorrow morning at 5 a.m., I'll leave home to take a ride. Where?! I really don't know. I'll just take a few music CDs and drive until the infinite. One of the CDs which I'm looking are the Nigthwish. I'll return late. Perhaps I’ll return next day, who knows?! Yes, this happens often, that means that I need a quite and peaceful place, quite far away from my work.

There are no doubts that Tarja Turunen (now, Anette Olzon) has a beautiful voice.

Elvenpath – Nightwish

Friends and Their Thoughts

A friend has just told me that when he listens Don't Stop me Now, by Queen, he remembers me.

And no... I didn't have any good time with him. Humm... I'm quite embarrassed... :-/

Green Day vs. Kelly Clarkson

I'd just loved this musical arrangement.

Summer Hit 2007

Everybody remembers one of the music summer hits of 2003/2004. If you know what I'm talking about, you can skip the following video-clip.

O-zone: Dragostea Din Tei

Prepare yourself for the summer hit of 2007 :) The single was reliesed on April 23rd, 2007.

Mika: Love Today

A decade of MOOing

Some years ago... I have chosen a nickname or character according my personality. Gold Moon was the name, describing the shyness hidden in the moon and the joy mystified by the light of the gold.

Gold Moon is a fictional character from RPGames created by Margaret Weis and Tracy Hickman in 1984. By the matter of fact, I have chosen this character only for one reason:

Gold Moon is a healer, and finds satisfaction in helping others, even when her healing power and mysticism both leave she does what she can to help. She had the strength to unite her people under her ailing father, and to later carry the blue crystal staff into the world. She saw her village destroyed and a lot of other destruction during the War of the Lance, but her love for Riverwind and the goddess Mishakal helped carry her past her grief at the destruction she saw to help others to build a future.

After a few years I have decided to quit moo and I really have destroyed (or recycled) everything what I have build until that moment.

For some reason (don’t ask me what it was) I have returned 5 years ago and re-built everything from the beginning, but this time with a new character: Lady Godiva.

According to the popular story, the beautiful Lady Godiva took pity on the people of Coventry, who were suffering grievously under her husband's oppressive taxation. Lady Godiva appealed again and again to her husband, who obstinately refused to remit the tolls. At last, weary of her entreaties, he said he would grant her request if she would ride naked through the streets of the town. Lady Godiva took him at his word and, after issuing a proclamation that all persons should keep within doors or shut their windows, she rode through, clothed only in her long hair.

And these 2 characters resume my life. Basically, to help people at all cost. Firstly with the strength of the youth and finally with the wisdom acquaint along the years. In real life I am the Lady but with the wild spirit of a young girl. Perhaps someday I will return to moosaico, but today I can assure you that my will is to leave everything and everyone behind me.

You can ask which character I would personify if I come back, right?! Humm, I don’t know, but someone likes Hypatia of Alexandria :-) It’s not a promise and yet… you will need to wait a couple of years for my return. Perhaps at my forty age!

And you… just keep MOOing. I'm not going to die, just leaving. You know where you can find me. And if you find who sings this song, I will give you a candy bar.

P.S. No, I don’t want to discuss the reverse of the music.

Personal Jesus - Depeche Mode

A song released in 1989 by the Depeche mode and re-edited by Marilyn Manson after 10 years.
You can hear the both version. Personally, I think Marilyn Manson has screwed the song. The instrumental can be a great version, but at least it could be another guy singing.

Depeche Mode

Marilyn Manson

Lyric:

Reach out and touch faith
Your own Personal Jesus
Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who cares
Your own Personal Jesus
Someone to hear your prayers
Someone who's there

Feeling's unknown and you're all alone
Flesh and bone by the telephone
Lift up the receiver
I'll make you believer

Take second best
Put me to the test
Things on your shest
You need to confess
I will deliver
You know I'm a forgiver
Reach out and touch faith

Your own Personal Jesus
Feeling's unknown and you're all alone
Flesh and bone by the telephone
Lift up the receiver
I'll make you believer
I will deliver
You know I'm a forgiver
Reach out and touch faith
Your own Personal Jesus
Reach out and touch faith

Comme D'habitude - Michel Sardou

I remember my parents to sing this song. This weekend i was driving and listening the radio. Surprise, surprise... A tear droped down into my face.

The song was released in 1967 by Claude François, and re-edited in 1977 by Michel Sardou.



With a better sound at http://www.clip-video-musique.com/comme-d--habitude-1299.html

Je me lève
Et je te bouscule
Tu ne te réveilles pas
Comme d'habitude
Sur toi je remonte le drap
J'ai peur que tu aies froid
Comme d'habitude
Ma main caresse tes cheveux
Presque malgré moi
Comme d'habitude
Mais toi tu me tournes le dos
Comme d'habitude

Alors je m'habille très vite
Je sors de la chambre
Comme d'habitude
Tout seul je bois mon café
Je suis en retard
Comme d'habitude
Sans bruit je quitte la maison
Tout est gris dehors
Comme d'habitude
J'ai froid je relève mon col
Comme d'habitude

Comme d'habitude
Toute la journée
Je vais jouer à faire semblant
Comme d'habitude
Je vais sourire
Comme d'habitude
Je vais même rire
Comme d'habitude
Enfin je vais vivre
Comme d'habitude

Et puis le jour s'en ira
Moi je reviendrai
Comme d'habitude
Tu seras sortie
Et pas encore rentrée
Comme d'habitude
Tout seul j'irai me coucher
Dans ce grand lit froid
Comme d'habitude
Mes larmes je les cacherai
Comme d'habitude

Comme d'habitude
Même la nuit
Je vais jouer à faire semblant
Comme d'habitude
Tu rentreras
Comme d'habitude
Je t'attendrai
Comme d'habitude
Tu me souriras
Comme d'habitude

Comme d'habitude
Tu te déshabillera
Comme d'habitude
Tu te coucheras
Comme d'habitude
On s'embrassera
Comme d'habitude